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Tell me who I am
I started going to church on the 29Th September 2009, for a change.
I'm Changing to be a better person I guess, Opening my heart out more, Just to be overall - good. But not too good, because life is too short to be all good and plus we are pretty young. Meaning that we make mistake and if you are not selfish - learning from your mistake.
P.S. I love Jesus Christ.
I'm pretty emo at home, well...if you know me, you would understand. But if you want to know more then..here: I don't know why, maybe it's the atmosphere and the constant arguments and violence at home. It's like the movie: Once Were Warriors except Asian version. I hardly laugh or talk at home maybe once in a few weeks - I have depression.
Most of the time at school, I have a mask on - A fake warm smile and humble greetings. I have to, otherwise how am i suppose to enjoy the rest of the day? But I feel as I am myself more at school than home.
I Like to entertain people. Most of the time making them laugh- Because it gives me a warm secure feeling of happiness.
I cannot categories my friends and families - because they all feels like Family to me. Maybe that's why I have to learn to say no.
I was Bullied in Primary.
I act tough and all - but really I am a big Softy. And if you don't believe it, I sleep with a night light LOL ( Because I'm scared of the dark). But I keep my values and stay strong.
Some say I'm nosy, some say I'm interested. I say I'm Curious George :)
I'm immature at times, I mean so what? - I'm not married. =P But I could go as deep as you want in a conversation, I can Keep a secret - Because i will forget it. LOL Unless it's something to do with me.
I have no sister so Clarisse Co is like a Sister to me, Little one; since she's younger then me 0.0 LOL
My first crush was in primary, yr 5? yr 6? I cant remember but it was Tyler Jolley. :) I thought you liked Yujin so I didn't bother. haha and you have to know - it took ages finding you! because of no connection and communication back then. But Thanks to FACEBOOK, I finally found you.
I get hooked on to TV quite easily- I could watch cartoons, drama, docos anything! LOl I just love media? and Movies! - I always wanted to do Performing arts.
My mum use to hit me a lot, with wooden spoon, coat hangers, shoe, belt.. anything in her reach. But it's less now. As you can see why I flinch everytime people do a innocent hand gestures O.o''
I eat VERY slow, but my metabolism is pretty fast. But it pisses people off haha
I attempted 4 or more suicide because of my depression - But failed Because I grew Stronger.
I've liked over a million people LOL but only truly one person - I will never mention this person's name. But I have liked you for 3 years.
In other hand, the only person I liked and told and he liked me back was Billy. But then You did some..stupid weird stuff so yea. I would Still liked you if you haven't changed but then you have so bleh :X
I ran away from home once - and Failed.
I only trust one person - me
I was selfish { changing now } and moody, but I can give a hand in need because I like to help the important.
I was Selfish but not Cold- hearted.
I never look down on people - because you never know when they will climb up and maybe help you. Which leads to, I accept everyone. Because everyone should have a chance to speak.
I'm more practical - hands down, When I was little I use to create model houses out of polystyrene and invented indoor cardboard ski board and take apart my duck clock ( I feel sorry for it now) and put it all back together lol =] hahaha Thanks to the Game Sims, I wont make a mess at home no more !
I find guy friends more easy to talk to than girl friends :S
I was label as "Tomboy" a lot , because I didn't wear skirt or short shorts or dress or make up. And maybe I was rough and play too much sports.
But it's because I don't feel that comfortable wearing mini skirt it makes me feel too expose O.O'' I don't mind if its a really really really hot day - ill wear it. It' s just clothes. I'm rough maybe because I have two Brothers and since I'm the oldest sister I had to tough up and lead a good role model for them. I play sports because I can. People still liked me because I was myself.
I have a Vagina not a Penis.
I hate seeing clumps of ants or spiders or any of those creepy insects - it give me the shivers and goosebumps lol
I did house chores since I was 8 = =
I was really really shy, thanks to speech - I am more confident now.
I stumble I lot when a talk LOL
I had a eating disorder when I was little - I eat, then Vomit. LOL Oh yeah by the way that is why I eat Slow if your wondering earlier on.
I have a forgetful memory !!!! which I dislike very much, but the funny thing is - I remember random stuff easily. Never the school stuff. haha
I use to have imaginary friends when I was little :/ because my mum and dad worked in a restaurant in Austria and dont have time for me ....so I was alone and I think they realise it because they had my Brothers LOL
I hated my Brothers. But I guess they're alright now.
I dont like my room door to be half open or open at nightI get irritated when my mum comes in then leaves the door like that...because I just feel something weird and is scared something might pop out and scare me...same to my closet ~.~ yea...
I had beer when I was 4, I remember my dad telling me I was pretty drunk and danced around the restaurant.I always thought in Austria the people are really friendly and nice, maybe because I entertain the customers and on Easter these old couples ( really old) gave me this really cool as cake ~! I love being around with people. But. I like to be Lonely at times.
My mum thinks i have mental problem LOL like im weird and not healthy and natural ~.~ well maybe because my period came when I was 15? and somehow now it doesnt come much because of my nervous breakdown thing 0.0;; But when it first came I was scared shit, but I knew what it was LOL but still I hate seeing blood it just bleh~~~~!
I HATE NEEDLES, INJECTIONS.
I get really nervous and scare when I have an examination, not just school like any examination. Before the exam I would feel like I want to Vomit, My stomach will hurt ( Thinking ill shit my self), My whole body becomes cold and I 'shake' and have sweaty palm lol
Everytime I cry, My Whole body becomes really numb.
Hm Im still experience life, the list goes on..but i'll add more once I remember more LOL
1 Timothy 4:11-14
Command and teach these things.Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching.Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through a prophetic message when the body of elders laid their hands on you.
i am so gunna try making hitting hand gestures more often!
flinch flinch*
camera on hand*~
yeah dw i still love you XD
awww~ peggy~ AMY LOVES YOU (:
We can go jump off a bridge together! x) nahh~~~ jokes ! ill secretly tie a rope on you first before we jump (:
<3
LOL >< thnks amy !
n clarisse...PSH * flicnh liek hardcore ROFL* HHAHA !!